The Named Queen

What is carried

The hall does not ask.

They arrive.

Lomaharśana first.

Careful not to disturb what already holds.

Suka behind him.

Certain enough to begin before it settles.


The praise

“The world will say you were the sight he lacked,
that where he could not see, you shared his night.
That you stepped into the dark he could not leave,
so he would not be alone within its sight.

They will say you steadied what would fall apart,
and took the light, so he might stand upright.”

He pauses.

Satisfied with the shape.

“It will carry,” he says.


What is answered

She does not move.

Saubalātmajā hears it first.

They will say I chose it.”

Suka inclines his head.

“And was it not the highest choice?
To share what he could not escape?”

The bard watches.

He does not speak yet.


What is given

She speaks.

Measured.

Not resisting.

“To hold a house that does not see
is not to close one’s eyes and be.
It is to stand where sight would part,
and keep the breaking from the heart.”

The bard takes it.

He holds it.

He repeats.

Soft.

“To hold a house that does not see…”

He lets it fall into measure.

He will remember it as Gāndhārī.


What is not still

Silk holds.

Gāndhārī holds.

Beneath it…

Mati does not.

Not still.

Not turned away.


The presence

By a pillar…

the one they call Kṛṣṇa.

Unannounced.

Unneeded.

The gaze does not rest on the cloth.

“You kept him from being alone,” the voice says.

A pause.

“It is a quiet place.”

Nothing shifts.

“One can see everything there.”

Silence.

“Even what was left to happen.”

The words do not press.

They remain.


What is taken

Suka smiles.

“Even the dark one sees it,” he says.

He turns to the bard.

“Shape it so it holds.”

The bard nods.

He already has.


What is accepted

She does not correct them.

Saubalātmajā does not refuse the shape.

Gāndhārī does not return the name.

They will say I chose it,” she says again.

Her voice does not change.

Mati does not answer.


The line

He could not see.
I did not.

It did not leave.


What leaves

They turn.

The verse travels in memory.

Carried in breath.

Given form in repetition.

The rest does not.


What remains

The hall empties.

Nothing asks to be restored.

Nothing can be.


The line that remains

What is carried
is Gāndhārī.

What remains
is not named.

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