Before She Let It Be Called Equal

After one son was given

Ulūpī did not sit.

She stood where the water met stone.

Babhruvāhana was not here.

This was not his ground.

Arjuna stood at a distance that could be called respectful.

Or safe.

By a pillar, in shadow broken by reflected water, stood the one they would call Krishna.

Watching.

No one named it.


The tellers arrive late enough to think it is safe

Footsteps.

Two.

Lomaharśana came first.

He did not step too close.

He had learned.

Behind him, Suka came as before.

Certain.

He raised two fingers in benediction.

The gesture found no place.

He did not notice.


The shape they bring

Suka began.

“The son who stood for greater cause
Gave willingly what life had stored.
In sacrifice his name was raised,
And thus the path of fate was cleared.

For when one life is rightly placed,
The many lives that follow stand.
Thus order takes what must be given,
And holds the world in balanced hand.”

Ulūpī did not move.

Lomaharśana waited.


What she asks

Which life was rightly placed?

Suka inclined his head.

“That which preserves the greater line.”

Ulūpī turned slightly.

Say the name.

Suka did not.

Lomaharśana did not.


What is known

Ulūpī spoke.

My son stood.

No one interrupted.

He was not the only one who could have been asked.

Silence.

He was the one who was.

That settled differently.


What is not said

They will say he gave himself.

Suka inclined his head.

“That is known.”

They will say it was willing.

“Yes.”

Ulūpī’s gaze did not shift.

They will say it made the rest possible.

“Yes.”

A pause.

They will not say who was not asked.

Silence.

Suka did not answer.


The measure

Ulūpī spoke.

They will say all sons are equal.

No one moved.

They will not count them that way.

The water moved against the stone.

One is kept.

A breath.

One is given.

No one corrected it.


Arjuna speaks where he must

Arjuna stepped forward.

“He was not taken. He agreed. He understood what was at stake. What was asked of him was not less because it was him. It was because he could bear it that he was asked.”

Ulūpī did not turn.

He bore it,” she said.

Nothing added.

Nothing taken away.


The line

Do not make them equal.

Silence.

You will say they are.

A beat.

They are not.

No rise.
No fall.

Suka tried.

“What is given in sacrifice…”

Ulūpī:

Is taken.

That closed it.


The bard sees

Lomaharśana spoke.

“I will say what stood.”

Ulūpī:

You will say what was allowed to stand.”

He lowered his head.

That was closer.


The one by the pillar

Nothing had been said.

Nothing needed to be.

Suka looked once toward the pillar.

Only once.

Then away.


Already counted

It had already begun.

What would be said.
What would be weighed.
What would be made equal.

But not that.


When the dark one steps aside

The one they will call Kṛṣṇa moved.

Less than before.

Enough.

We follow.

“You do not ask this evenly.”

No accusation.

“You decide first.
Then you count.”

Silence.

“It will be said that one gave.
And one was preserved.”

A pause.

“You will call that balance.”

Another.

“It is not.”

The water sound remained.

“You will say it was necessary.”

No emphasis.

“It was.”

A longer silence.

“So are many things.”

The gaze did not soften.

“You will not say what you chose.”

That stayed.

“I will not say it for you.”

Silence.

Behind, the telling had already begun to settle.

Ahead, the measure remained.

Unadjusted.

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